Alhamdulillah. These past few weeks have been divine! I've been going out with a Hijaab on as to get the feel of it before I ever decide to permanently commit to it. MasyaAllah, the feeling is amazing. I can't put a finger on what it felt like. Dawning a Hijaab to me, made me feel safe. I definitely felt a million times safer than I did when I had my short skirts on. No perverted gazes or wolf-whistling. I felt like a respected individual. Huzzah! I now understand what the Holy Quran meant when it said 'The sole purpose of a woman covering her Aurah is for her to protect herself.' My religion means well but it's disappointing to see others who do not understand us feel as though we are being oppressed into covering ourselves up. It's liberating to be away from the watchful eyes of one's Nafsu.
I'd like to think God's greatest gift is choice. We always have a choice. Which is why, to me, I will personally advise you to only wear it when you're ready! Although the Holy Quran verses 24:31 and 33:59, state that we are held accountable for our behavior and our sins after we've reach puberty, forgive me for I was not strong enough to take on the task of dawning a Hijaab after I've reached my time. I do not serve as the perfect example but MasyaAllah sister, if you feel as though you have the strength and patience that suffice to dawn your Hijaab after you've reached puberty then by all means! Alhamdulillah, you go girl!
Also, dawning a Hijaab made me feel more confident of myself. I was brave enough to walk into Borders alone with my purse in one hand and a cup of iced Chai in the other. I feel empowered! Not even the security guards dared to tell me that no drinks were allowed in the bookstore. I was a rebel without a cause and I felt notorious! But of course this is not what I am trying to achieve as a future Hijabi, InsyaAllah. Finally my petite and insecure self remembered that it had self-worth and so does every other girl. I achieved a modest level of self-esteem and frankly, for the first time in many days out, I felt genuinely happy!
My best friend Naj said the kindest thing to me this week, I never felt like I deserved to hear this from anyone in a million years. "If anyone were to put on a Hijaab, you have the perfect Akhlak for it." Those were by far the kindest words I've ever heard from a friend! Minutes later we were in H&M. She saw a mannequin with an absurd turban on and told me "Babe. If you ever dress like this out, I will kill you." What are your best girls for, right?
Lastly, the Hijaab experience humbled me. As a woman, when we dawn a Hijaab, our best assets are covered. So instead, why not try to be remembered for all your greater traits such as your intelligence and your wonderful personality? This is where the importance of being kind is essential as a Hijabi. Stay thirsty and constantly feel the need to seek knowledge. Ask questions! Be modest and bear in mind that there are others in this world who are far more better than we are. Let them serve as our guideline and not as people who we must envy. Repent on our sins in every prayer for God is forgiving and God is kind. I promise you, once you put your Niyyat into becoming a better person then all your physical assets won't matter no more because others will learn to love and accept you for who you are! ♥
And most importantly my loves: Covering your Aurah is all about becoming a better person. So never ever look down on others who are not ready to cover their Aurah. Remember that we are always tested by Allah SWT and ever so often, we fail. Everybody has their own struggle and a special relationship with God. Finally, learn to respect the teachings of different religions and never offend them! Once you offend other religions, you will represent yours badly. Islam is a peaceful religion, try not to complicate it!
Thus, ends my entry on my interesting Hijaab day out. Phew! Now that's a long post to make up for my absence, hehe. Forgive me if my knowledge in my religion does not suffice :( you can click here to refer more on Islamic teachings and on why we are taught to dress modestly. Also, I apologize if I have spoken wrongly. Please do not hesitate to correct me if I'm wrong :( God knows the flaws I have within myself. I hope you enjoyed reading my 2 cents once again! Before I end my post, here's something cute I ripped off the internet,
“I wear it so that I will be judged by my intelligence, personality, and integrity rather than the way I look.
I wear it so that men will not have a second look at me as if I were a piece of meat walking by for their own pleasure.
I wear it as a powerful way to represent myself as a Muslim.
I wear it because I do not want to conform to today's twisted standards of beauty.
I feel like a queen with a crown on her head when I wear it.”
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